Saturday, April 6, 2013

Thursday, April 4, 2013


I won't deny that God is real, and I won't deny that it is taking everything inside me to say that. I grew up in an extremely religious family so church was never a question growing up. We attended church every Sunday and participated in several church related activities outside of our 3 hour service each week. The past few years I have structured my life differently. During my first marriage I really started to question what I truly believed and how I felt. Now three years later, I have a hard time saying that I am apart of a specific religion. When I am questioning my childhood and living differently then how I was raised, I don't feel like I have the right to claim the title of a religious group that is so strong in their beliefs. So for now, I am with out church.


Lately I have felt a little lost and a little hopeless. There are so many important decisions coming up, and so many things going on that I can never seem to keep my head above water for very long. I´m at a loss of words and can´t even find comfort in writing. All my body ever wants to do is sleep. I am officially brain dead and it does not suit me well. I´m finished  Right now, "Time is my enemy."

Monday, April 1, 2013


Lately I've been missing things.

I've been missing free time,
opportunities to be creative,
and life simplicity's.

Oliver and I have been so stressed out
that we hardly even have time for each other.
We always jump at each others throats
because life is so busy that we can't seem to enjoy it!

Now, I promise we are beyond happy,
but I am dreaming of times
when school is gone,
work is under control
and the idea of a vacation doesn't feel
like a far far away dream

I'm tired, stressed
and overworked

Will it ever end?