reasons we didn't work out was that I wanted
to travel and he didn't.
This past weekend this statement pounded my chest
like I needed to be cracked in two.
Here is the story.
I stepped out my door at 6:30 AM
with a very simple idea.
To play for the day at a national park,
to visit somewhere near by
and bask in the glory that God placed on the earth.
My day did not go as planned.
After four hours of driving
I ended up at a dead end
but a wasted four hours.
I think I laughed so hard I even cried
I think I listened to so many beautiful songs
I think I cried because I could and I was alone
After finding an information center
I asked if there was anything near by
the sleepy tourist town I had wondered into.
I found the beauty that is Mono Lake.
On my way home
my mind ran rapid past cliffs
sliding in and out of turns
like socks on a wood floor.
The statement cracked me.
It's not that I wanted to travel and he didn't
It was the mere fact that I wanted more than simple.
Simple didn't cut it for me,
I wanted adventure
a partner to experience it with,
and the hope that someone would enjoy
the beauty of the earth, the great outdoors,
spending eight countless hours in a car with me
and still need more.
I need a partner with an outlook on life that
That is grateful for everyday given
and never wants to stop exploring with me
I need a partner who can spend all Saturday in the sun
get drunk with me, make mad love,
and still not get enough.
That's why we didn't work out.